Self doubt eats away at your thoughts, Building fear deep within, Ripping the very dreams from your heart, Replacing them with nothing but regret, Eventually devouring your soul entirely, Leaving you but a shell of a being. - C.A. Sullivan
Practice being present in each moment
and find the the gifts each day has to offer.
– C.A. Sullivan
Learn how to be content
With what you have,
Without putting a halt
To the things you’ve
Yet to achieve.
– C.A. Sullivan
In the corner, sits a smudge
It’s been mocking me
And will not budge
I try to erase it, with no such luck
It lives on my paper
Running a muck
I try to cover it, with illustrations a glow
But it’s there underneath
All the colors in tow
For it lives on my paper, forever a smudge
Bothering me greatly
With its hiss and grudge
I want it go, as it steadies its stare
Silently mocking my words
With nothing more but a glare
On and on, into the night
My smudge remains
And continues it’s blight
Then I realized, why it won’t leave
It’s because my dear friends
The smudge is me
– C.A. Sullivan
You can change
as much as you want
on the outside.
Lift and tuck,
color and creams.
But no amount of makeup
will ever hide
the ugliness that’s
inside your heart.
- C.A. Sullivan
The world only seems chaotic
because we don’t understand it.
But actually, every moment
whether it be painful, fearful,
joyous or exciting,
has been carefully designed
and placed exactly where it is.
It’s hard for us to understand
because we can’t get outside of ourselves
and above it all to see the
masterpiece puzzle we are slowly
putting together
that creates a larger picture,
a greater meaning.
Some parts are terrifying,
others are messy.
But in the heart of it all
is a connection
that runs so deep and so true
we couldn’t possibly see it with our
naked eye.
But it is felt,
in every wish,
in every heartbeat,
in every joyful moment,
in a child’s laugh.
in a restful sleep.
– C.A Sullivan
I was never very popular,
but the connections
I do make
are very true and real.
I never knew how to
draw a crowd,
influence a mind,
control a room.
But I can share my experience,
listen with my whole heart
and care deeply about people.
– C.A. Sullivan
As a child I remember being outside in fall. I stood in the open field, surrounded by a fence of trees. The wind blew hard and steady, pulling the orange, red and brown leaves from their branches and into the air like snow. I spun around in circles, arms out, head turned up towards the sky, dancing in the leaf rain. They fell so beautifully and slowly, I didn’t want it to end. That magical moment when the world stopped and only I existed in it. - C.A. Sullivan
I often feel trapped by the expectations and cultural normalities of this world. I want to be free of this worry. Free of the confines of money, debts, responsibilities. Everything seems so complicated. I often wish for a more simple life. The older I get, the more challenging things become. - C.A. Sullivan
I’ve always felt like I was here to do more. Have a greater purpose. When life changes, I think here it is, This is my purpose. But as time passes, It becomes stale again, I become restless. I find myself unhappy again and wanting to move on. Why is nothing good enough? Is it me? Or am I not on the right path. And this is my body’s way of telling me. How do I find my path?
– C.A. Sullivan
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